oh no, oh shit, dammit

 

most of my life

i've thought ... success was making it ...

money, dreams come true ... all that

i thought that by making it i could help other people ...

they would see that dreams do come true and you should do what you believe in,

and i could turn them on with some money if they needed it

and i could save them

well ... that may all be true ... but

this morning i had this thought ...

what if your dreams don't come true ... a lot of peoples don't ...

what if you're a loser ... in the worlds eyes and your own ...

and i thought ... oh no, oh shit, dammit, maybe that is the way to

really help people ... maybe success is keeping on when nothing seems to work out ...

to still do what you love and to let people know, it's okay ...

most of the people that have helped me were "losers" ...

my gramma, no money no job ... bukowski ... loser, and the biggest loser of all time JC ... he told the

world he loved them ... had NO MONEY, NO JOB

and they crucified him ...

maybe being a light means shining like the truth in a world that

reflects lies ...

maybe not ... it was just a thought i had this morning